when you are not a girl nobody buys you flowers

Been awhile since i posted anything new so i decided to post a little something. This past weekend turned out to be more expensive and fun that i anticipated. Went to see Dj Colette at Deep on Sunday night, very awesome. I'll be sure and post something about her later in the week but today i was really excited to discover Emilie Simon. One of the more obvious comparisons I've been reading about is bjork but i think more on a visual level that a sonic one. I actually had never heard of her but while at amoeba this past weekend the CD cover caught my eye(the picture above). I think maybe a staff member had recommended it so they had placed a little card with a brief description of the album, They used the words "creepy lullabies" and "Nordic but sung in french and English" so i read on, once i saw she covered "i wanna be your dog" i was sold. Best discovery of the month. Here are some videos and a couple of songs to download. enjoy bitches!!!


Emilie Simon - Dame de Lotus


Emilie Simon - Fleur de Saison


Emilie Simon - Flowers


Emilie Simon - I Wanna Be Your Dog


Downloads:

Emilie Simon-I Wanna Be Your Dog

Emilie Simon-Dame de Lotus

Emilie Simon-Fleur de Saison

Emilie Simon-Song of the Storm

POPlife

Beacuse i've recently shut off my cable i have turned to blogs as a replacement for E!. My favorite being d-listed. I don't know what it is about perez hilton(ok yes i do its, his hair and the fact that i see him at too many god damn shows) but i just really can't handle his blog. Anyways, this guy is just as bitchy and doesn't have hair like someone from the jetsons. It's just another way to pass time at work, but something i saw this morning completely shocked me. Now i thought lauryn hill was laying low now adays but apparently shes not...why this bitch isnt all across the covers of people and us weekly is beyond me. This is what my boy from d-listed had to say:

"Ronald McDonald's secret love child is that you? No, it's Lauryn Hill! Seriously, Lauryn doesn't give a fuck! Or maybe she does and that's why she put this heinous outfit together. I'm into it though. I can handle the crazy. Someone really needs to give this woman her own reality show STAT."

I couldn't agree more. i'd actually consider turning my cable back on if she got her own show.

i am no good for you

i just saw this video for sia's new single and i am absolutely loving this shit. The song is great, yes, but the video is fucken genius. It reminds me more of her first album tittled "healing is difficult" that wasnt realesed in the US. I'm sure by now it's a little easier to find but it came out a little before her single "destiny" with zero 7 blew the fuck up. That whole album made me fall in love with her. Majority of the songs are about being fucked up or breaking up with someone whos fucked up. "breathe me" was a great single and an amazing song but i kinda felt like i wanted the sia i fell in love with back. Hopefully this song is some kinda of indication that she is. Here's a couple of songs from the first album. Enjoy...if you want.

So it seeems the assholes at Universal have restricted embedding the video so here is a link and the live version
Sia-Buttons Video



Get me-Sia

I'm not important MP3-Sia

Healing is Difficult-Sia

don't forget your on your own

Lately I've been getting really bored with dance music in general. Seems everyone is forgoing vocals for a repetitive "vocal sample" that is synthesized and distorted. Yesterday i decided to come to work early and work a little overtime, after the first couple of hours i was already looking for diversions when i stumbled across Marsheaux. They kinda remind me of client. Not just for the obvious reason, i mean yes they are two hot girls playing catchy synth pop music but with titles like "dream of a disco" and "what a lovely surprise"...i had a sense that i was gonna love them. Once i heard the cover of promise i was sold...that song has always been able somehow transport me back to high school for some reason. Love it. Repping a label i have never heard(Undo Records), they apparently have 2 albums both available for purchase on their myspace. I am so getting my hands on a copy fo sho'....way to excited about finding this band. To top things off when i came in to work today(another early day) Cheri sent me links to their videos on youtube. Watch and cream boys.



hanging on



Popcorn



pure

Another great find yesterday is the band Itenef. Big up s to fucken Greece for beings so god damn sexy. These guys have more of a history in the electronic music world. before becoming Itenef the went by the name Trance 95 in the mid 80's. Drawing less from bands like Soft Cell and Depeche Mode, they sound more like a really sexy Kraftwerk or a more human Cabaret Voltaire. I wasn't able to find any videos other than one they released while still trance 95.



Desire to desire 88

So with all that said i guess my love of synth pop will never die. Guess I'll just anxiously await a time when people realize pop doesn't have to mean devoid of emotion and depth. I'll end with my absolute favorite synth pop band of all time SOVIET. i would have this mans babies if it were possible. Love at first listen for me.



breakdown


Soviet-Breakdown mp3. in case you wanna download it. Peace bitches

time has come today

The time has finally come, as some of you that know me know that i have been waiting for these bitches to announce the LA date for the upcoming MIA tour. I finally got word yesterday and immediately bought my ticket...should have bought 2 but wasn't thinking thru all the excitement and blood rushing to my head. If you hadn't heard she is touring with some amazing talent. First off my girl Santi White who has since the breakup of her band Stiffed has started a solo project. I have heard the word MC being thrown around and while that is kinda accurate Santogold is so much more than that. Almost sounding like a completely different band she is moving into the world of dance music. The first time i heard it i thought it was very M.I.A.-esqe but alot of the songs switch up musical styles from dancehall, to indie pop and hip hop. Seriously i may be even slightly more excited to see her seeing as how i was never able to catch stiffed while they were together. Either way she was a perfect choice for a opening act. I'm assuming Amanda Blank will go on first seeing as she has the least amount of exposure as of yet. She is someone i would consider more along the lines of an MC but equally as brilliant of a choice for an opening act. The 3 women represent a new school of DIY genre-hopping artists. They will be at the echoplex in echo park on the 30th. I'm hoping to get there as early as possible to not miss any of these 3. If you haven't gotten tickets yet there may still be some available online but i did hear that they would also have some at the door the night of the event.

Also on a completely different topic I was chatting with my girl Cheri talking about what the fuck they're putting in baby formula now adays. Seems kids are not only hotter and seem more grown faster but they are also more in the know then alot of people my age. Its crazy, I attribute it to the internet. I mean yes, it was available when we were younger but not used by so many people as today. You can really know just about everything going on in the underground if you have the time to look...and who has more free time then teenage kids so i guess it makes perfect sense. Anyways 2 notable teens doing the damn thing i found online today are rye rye a 16 year old rapper/dancer out of Baltimore,MD. Check out the song "shake it to the ground" and "reasons"....bitch straight sampled earth, wind and fire. If that's not impressive for a 16 year old girl i don't know what is. Just take a look at her musical influences and you get an idea of what I'm talking about. While on her page i got linked to Makrophone another kid not even old enough to buy tobacco related products. Check out his remixes of Pull up the people by MIA and Brooklyn Lovin' by the late great Biggie. Seriously me and cheri were both creaming over the MIA remixes and I'm usually not a big fan of remixes but he did a great job. The thing is it isn't over done...he's not shoving his hipness down our already over stuffed throats. I was just impressed at the amount of talent and the knowledge of music these kids have seemed to posses at such a young age. Makes me feel like i wasted my teen years obsessing over Tori Amos B-sides. haha. Peace out heffas.

so ready to surrender

Here we go. So it's been quite sometime since i have posted anything. No particular reason just have been going thru alot lately. Nothing life changing...well not exactly. I just mean its not that i have alot going on around me, just inside. So far 26 has brought a big shift in the way i look at things, myself, and the people around me. For the first time in my life i feel the burn from sticking my hands straight into the fire, in other words.....time to face the consequences of my actions. It amazes me the shit i was getting away with when i think back just a few short months ago, the way i was able to completely alter my reality. I had a few major wake up calls that i wont get into but the product of all my mindless selfish behavior has been to big to ignore. The biggest outcome has been the fact that i have made the decision to leave silverlake behind me and move to Long beach(my old stomping grounds....he he). I'm not unhappy with the decision, its just the way that it happened really shook me up....or rather woke me up.

So with all that madness going on i really had sometime to rethink my life. My future.....ha ha, may even have been a first for me. I really have made some decisions to change and have some goals I'd like to reach, both short and long term. A big part of this, maybe the word big gives it to much credit, but a part of this has been brought on by someone i have met. I guess to an extent we are in some sort of relationship although its not the typical definition of a "boyfriend", but i am for the first time very happy with my choice to keep focus on this one man. It hasn't been all easy, but it was or is no where near as difficult as i once imagined. He is in no way the type of person i thought i would end up being serious about. I don't even really think its him exactly, there were alot of things like i said that happened prior to us meeting that had shifted my path. I just think he gave me a reason to do it without fear of judgement.

So without getting to detailed i am very happy with the changes taking place inside me. As you can probably imagine this does certainly change my story. I no longer want to relate to the person i was writing about. I mean the whole idea behind my story was this kid running around in a place that almost applauded his awful behavior. I wanted him to get through it severely damaged but the same person, the point was that life doesn't judge or punish much like the way i imagine god. I can see now that that was me, running around with my eyes closed secretly hoping i didn't hit anything....too hard. To the outside world it may have seemed i was being careless or even worse just didn't care. But truthfully i had weighed my options, and faced my consequences in advance. I had already prepared and sort of mentally buried myself. I was just waiting for the physical world to catch me if it could, all i had been doing for the past couple of years was running. Not towards or from anything, but just sorta living in fast forward. Why? i cant really be sure but i am now to tired to keep the same pace.

My friend Wendy once gave me this book for my birthday a long time ago. Just a blank book but she had cut out images and put in quotes and stuff. Probably one of the greatest gifts i have ever received. Well anyways, there was this one quote that has stayed with me all these years later. It said "the key to happiness is learning to let go". Now that may sound pretty fortune cookie to most but at the time it struck me really hard. I imagine cause at that time i was really unhappy with myself. So i almost perfected the art of letting go...of starting over. I found that book a couple of weeks ago and it hit me just as hard as the first time that i had totally misunderstood it. Well maybe i had gotten it but just a very small part. I had taught and convinced myself that if i never really thought of anything as mine it wouldn't hurt to loose it. So i lived a long time in that mind frame. I learned to let it all go, money, relationships, people, actions. The thing was i was only thinking of things in the physical sense. Now as i stand before this new person in my life and admit for the first time not wanting to let it go, i feel that maybe the person who was being quoted meant it more in terms of letting go of yourself, of your pride, of fears. This is a big thing for me now, to not look back or worry what happens next. To just let it all go and fall towards something instead of away. Maybe again, this all sounds very simple but fuck it...i'm a simple guy.

I do promise to try write more often on here for any of you that have been periodically checking. The content may be a little less exciting but i still do very much wanna start getting this story out of me. The shape of it has altered dramatically but its still itching to get out. I'm not even sure how exactly all this will lend itself to what I'm writing but i know that it will. I had this idea that i wanted the story to be if i was thinking of it in a visual sense more like porn that a movie. Haha...yeah like really well written artsy porn. I still in a way imagine it that way but, well we'll see what happens. Ultimately my charachter is more like a vessel than a person, just a container, he is transparent and open. To him there is no right or wrong, only truth and lies. To him the future is a concept not a guarantee. That is something i still honestly believe.

whats your man got to do with me?

I promised i would write out what had happened to me a couple of nights ago. Now first off this pattern i have been falling into recently of meeting guys with boyfriends doesn't seem to be changing at all. As a matter of fact another one just told me last night. Has a boyfriend in San Fransisco. Its funny how guys can suddenly out of nowhere get a conscience, just like that. Now there has been no pressure on my end and i certainly didn't do anything that would lead them to believe i was after any sort of real relationship, friendship with benefits, probably. Either way i can't shake the feeling I'm paying off some bad karma, now the question is what is it i have to change in order to restore balance. If it happened once or twice, no big deal, coincidence most likely. But i think I'm about hit the 6 point mark soon. Again I'm not one to complain or even care but 5 in a row kinda concerns me. Am i wrong to feel so?

Anyways back to the point. So i believe it was Monday night i decide, just having had a whole day off to recover from pride, to go out and have a drink and possibly.....well i was open for something to happen. Usually when i go out alone or with the intention to hookup i try not to talk to anyone for to long. If I'm not immediately interested i just walk away after the first lapse in conversation. For some reason that night i was talking to this guy who wouldn't leave me alone. So I'm relieved when i thought i saw a familiar face to save me. It turns out to be this guy i had met a couple months earlier. Now i have to kinda sidetrack for this story, the way we met was to awesome to not include. The first night i met him i was alone as usual and smoking on the outdoor patio. I noticed him cruising me thru the windows that face the patio, he was playing pool and ridiculously drunk. He had tattooed sleeves and a very "fuck you attitude" which is usually a turn-off to me but it just worked on him, the boy wore it well. i was digging the entire package. Now this guy that was also outside smoking kinda saw me looking in at him and motioned for me to come over. Always hesitant of random guys creeping in dark corners of gay bars spreading rumors, i nod and stay where i am. I had a feeling he was going to say something about him, and honestly i didn't care. After a second glance his way he gives up on the idea of me coming to him and simply puts his hands out palm to palm about a foot apart. I kinda laugh and realize he's trying to tell me he has a big dick. Almost a couple of seconds later he comes outside with a camel sticking out of his mouth. For some reason when guys can smoke without taking the cigarette from their mouth i instantly want to fuck them. I could feel it in my stomach, he was gonna speak. I look up to acknowledge i see him before he says a word. He asks if i play pool and i say i haven't drank enough to play good. With a half-smile he asks what I'm drinking and turns to the bar to get my stoli tonic. I stand there nervous about having to play pool when his friend he came with starts talking to me. He then tells me they met thru his best friend who happens to be the hot guys boyfriend. So maybe this one is my fault since i knew before hand. They are in a relationship he goes on to tell me but are allowed to fuck around. We both agree that neither of us could ever be in a situation like that but he says they have made it work and have done so for quite sometime. At that point he had returned with my drink and i was starting to feel one up on him. Not only did i know he had a boyfriend but his boyfriends best friend was sitting right there. I take a gulp of the drink and start to feel a little more confident in playing him. He looks over at me and asks what he gets if he wins, he says if he wins i have to show him my dick. I instantly say no and kinda laugh. Walking around the pool table to my side he leans in close and says OK, how about if i win i get to take you out next week and if you win I'll show you my dick... he cocks his head to one side and says but i still wanna take you out next week. I had to laugh at his eagerness to show the entire bar his dick and id be lying if i said i wasn't dying to see if the creepy guy was lying or not. 2 vodka tonics later i had surprised both of us and actually won. As promised i was flashed some dick and the creepy guy was wrong, it was bigger, well at least thicker than i imagined. ha ha. He never did take me out but in all fairness i guess i should finish the rest of the story. I'm sure you'll understand why we didn't.

So back to last Monday. I see him and he approaches me with the same drunken cockiness i still found hot. I wasn't that drunk maybe 2 drinks into the night. He asks me how I've been and why i haven't called him. I say i i took his number out of my phone cause he never called. He laughs pulls out his phone and calls my number, there now you have it again he says. I ask how he's been, he bitches about work as do i. Then the conversation turns to our phantom date. I have to admit i kinda wondered why he hadn't called me. We both live in the same hood and he was obviously into me. He starts talking about how fucked up i was the last time he saw me. I reply back about how i kinda remember kicking his ass at not only pool but a game of pinball. He laughs and said no the other time. This is the point where i usually start to get worried. What time? i hesitantly ask. He said i would have left with you guys but i don't do that shit anymore and he's not really my type. I'm sure the look of confusion on my face was the reason for his huge smile.......Fuck guys i have to go home. The train is waiting. i swear i will finish up tomorrow. not much of it left. I'm tired....last night was a complete waste of energy and time. Didn't get much sleep so I'm hoping i don't get the itch to go out tonight. Promise i will post tomorrow. Till then.